This week Chloe decided it was time to try to ride her tiny pink princess bike with out the aid of training wheels. I was so happy and at the same time I wanted to cry. It feels like all the milestones I once waited so anxiously for with Caleb, I dread now with Chloe.
Well let me start this from the beginning.
It all started a few months ago, when I was in a meeting with Caleb's school counselor and I was told all about how next year he will be earning high school credits, because my little son Caleb will be a high school freshman. AARRGGHH! When did the time pass?
(Is this the little girl I carried? Is this the little boy at play? I don't remember getting older when did they? Sunrise, sunset..... ) Alright maybe singing the song from Fiddler On The Roof is a bit dramatic but hello do you know me at all?
So my oldest child will be a high school freshmen next year. My youngest child is no longer using training wheels. And I am feeling motherhood slipping through my fingers. It feels like sand on the beach when the waves come in and you just can't hold on to it. It's just gone and you are left holding and empty fist.
Well I guess I can still be happy that my baby girl is still thrilled with the sparkly handlebar streamers and the princesses on the side of the training wheeless bike. And My oldest child will still come and cuddle me when he is feeling sad or even when he is feeling happy. And we still have a house full of the beautiful chaos that we call our home. When It finally comes to and end and they are to old to do those things and I am left in a quiet house with no little ones to sing bedtime songs to, then I will really fall apart. And yes I will play the song Sunrise Sunset on repeat and cry like a baby.
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I'm reading your post and I start humming..."Slipping thru my fingers" from Mama Mia...you're going to make me cry!
i know i've been feeling the same, with Gabrielle going to jr. high, and i felt so old.
Oh...as I'm reading this I'm starting to cry :( It does go so fast...but I will always have Jim to raise :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
If as a mother you feel this...imagine what I as a Nana feel like! Surely it was only yesterday that Caleb was that first grandchild to be born!
Crying, crying, crying...why are our little baby girls growing up? Mayci informed me yesterday that she didn't need help brushing her teeth anymore.
YOU ARE A BABY!
Freak.
It is sad but exciting too. I'm realizing that my kids still need me as they get older, just in a different way.
As for Fiddler - not a fan, but I can be there for you as you cry with Tevia.
I am w/ Steph on this one. humming the slipping through my fingers song in my mind. Whenever I hear that song I start crying just realizing that my baby girls and my baby boy arn't going to be my little babies much longer. They grow up way too quickly.
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